busy-ness.

holy hannah. life has gotten so busy so quickly! Even when I don't have a spring sport. well, kind of. With FCCLA, ProStart, Choir, Morp date stresses, and some fun in there.. and school! how could I forget... well with all those things going on with new things coming along everyday. everyday I seem to be so busy. And when I'm not doing anything, I'm lazing around like right now. I should not be blogging. I should be doing my horrendous "Animal Farm" packet for English. Or cleaning my room. Instead I'm blogging and on pinterst. Awesome. I feel so old. I've been kind of going non-stop since about the seventh grade. With the exception of a few summer days and vacations here and there. I cannot believe how quickly my adolescence has gone by, and it how quickly it continues..maybe even picking up speed! Last Sunday was my wards new beginnings. I am now the oldest girl there and the Laurel Pres. It seemed like only yesterday when it was the new beginnings I was being welcomed into. I was the only girl to be coming in throughout the following year. During the new beginnings I got to sit in a fancy chair, they game me a crown and a sash(like what they give you at pageants) that said "Daughter of a King." When I was that age I did not even fathom what that statement truly meant. sure growing up I sang "I am a Child of God" so many times I could probably sing it backwards. But at the naive age of 11 almost 12, I could have never understood the blessings of being a "Daughter of God." anyways... As I was reflecting on this experience I got a little teary eyed, thinking of all the young women that were older than me that I had looked up to. And then realizing I have to be what they were for me, for the young girls in my ward and the newest girlies just coming in. I ended bawling throughout the entire meeting because I am so old and my days in the young womens program are so numbered. I don't believe I have taken advantage of the young womens program. Because I've been so busy since the beginning.
After the meeting closed I was talking with Jenna, one of my closest friends. I told her that I only have one girls camp left in me. and that I had a little over a year left in young womens with her. To my surprise she started crying! It's incredible how close her and I have become over the past year or so. She will be someone I miss the most that is outside of my family when I "grow-up" and "move away"...
Something else that doesn't help is that fact that Jack is getting ordained on Sunday. My baby brother, holding the Preisthood. Jack! A preisthood holder! Which only makes me feel older. Soon enough I'm going to be a mom and an aunt. with the days of adolescense long since passed.
I need to knock it off. Stop wasting time whining, and more time doing the fun stuff i won't be able to do when I am old! (no offence, older people...)
I feel like I need to do something crazy! Maybe that will be my next post, illustrating what crazy thing I have done next. I cannot wait!
Thanks for listening to me whine, as always!

--Samm.