the year full of lasts...

I am officially the worst blogger on the planet. haha I haven't published anything since July 3rd! But I haven't had hardly any wifi since mid-August, so who can blame me?
I cannot believe how quickly time has FLOWN BY. It seemed like last week that volleyball had just started. And now I have two games left. Slap. In. The. Face. This year is going to be over before I know it! Which is an incredibly insane thought. Don't get me wrong, I'm super excited for the rest of my life (cough.. my mission.. cough) but still! High school is this bittersweet, incredibly awesomely terrible thing that leaves you in what seems like minutes. And I have the fear that I'm not ready for the "real world"...
Like I said, I have a game on Monday at Payson (My last away volleyball game. Like ever.) and my Last home volleyball game on Tuesday. Which is also senior night, aka the night where I'm going to cry, win or lose. It's all to surreal. Tonight was senior night for football, and even though I was at the top of the field running through the national anthem a few time with my fellow vocal jazzers, I still was able to catch a glimpse of the reality Tuesday will bring. I'll no longer be a "Lady Dino", sure, I'll be alumni. But we all know that isn't really the same thing. My last home game. My last game with my team. My last game as a Lady Dino.
Speaking of missions! *cough ;) I'm so excited! Have you heard!? The prayer in my heart got answered! By a prophet, nonetheless! :) I have been hoping for this change to what seems like, forever!! I'm a naturally impatient person, in most cases. And waiting until I was 21 to go on a mission, wouldn't have worked out with me. It just felt like so far away! As if I'd never get there in time. (funny thing is, in the 7th grade, I thought it'd take me forever to become a Senior. and look at me now...) So maybe it wouldn't be that bad, but still! 3 years after high school seems like forever. So now, my plan is (as of now...) to go to BYU-I for the Fall and Winter trimester, come home and leave on my mission! presto! :) The plan is still is under works, and I haven't even applied for colleges/scholarships yet, so anything could happen. I'm still so excited! Being able to teach the gospel so soon makes me sooo happy! Maybe they'll even extend missions for girls to two years by that time ;)
This year of high school is a year full of lasts: last home games, last first days, last homecoming. you get the picture. And before I know it I'll be tripping my way up to get my diploma. A graduated senior. An adult, pfft! hahah. It seems so soon. But I guess if I waited until I felt "ready" I'd be in high school still as the "super super" (maybe even another super) senior. So better late than never as they say.
It still hasn't settled in.
Welp. I should probably get some sleep. Since it's almost one... Hopefully more consistent blog posts because now I have consistent wifi! :)

Thanks for reading :)
--Samm.

everything happens for a reason.

summer is nearly half over! whaaat! this cannot be. soon i will walk back into the "halls of carbon" and have my last first day in high school. don't get me wrong. i am quite excited for the end of high school. i will indeed miss the friends and the ease of not have a whole butt ton of responsibility. but i am for sure done with the drama and the uncertainty. I'll probably still cry on graduation day. sadly.
I'm really not sure what to write about. hmm. again!
holy cow. the experiences of the last week have made me seriously recognize that everything does happen for a reason. that things can/will go wrong, especially when you aren't fully prepared and don't see them coming. buuut you can overcome things. that finding strength through the Atonement of our Savior Jesus Christ we can renew ourselves and our spirits and be happy again! I'm so grateful for my trials. I've said it before and I'll say it again! as weird as it sounds. My hardships, sorrows, failures, short comings, and mistakes have made me who i am today. Without them I wouldn't be half as strong as I am now, and i wouldn't be able to spiritually progress. I would come to a spiritual stand still, all growing and strengthening would cease and I would be unhappy. I would most likely feel unfulfilled--like something bigger and better was missing. I'm grateful for adversity because it brings me closer to my Heavenly Father and Savior Jesus Christ. It also brings me closer to those I love. Even though we might be at the end of our rope and we're upset with everything, we'll be growing together as friends/family and as children of God.

"there is no fog so dense, no night so dark, no gale so strong, no mariner so lost but what the lighthouse of the Lord can rescue. It beckons through the storms of life. It calls, “This way to safety. This way to home.” It sends forth signals of light easily seen and never failing. If followed, those signals will guide you back to your heavenly home."

I love this quote. It is from our Prophet Thomas S. Monson, from his talk addressed to the Young Women of the Church this year called "Believe, Obey, Endure." It is such a testimony builder! and such spiritual ammunition for me to endure through my present trials. I know I can overcome this. Although I know it won't be easy. I've dug myself into quite the spiritual hole. if that makes sense. But I feel my Saviors love, and with that I am capable of anything uplifting I put my mind to.

We're putting our house up for sale very very soon. I'm putting this on here for those who don't know yet. I'm actually surprised by how slow this piece of info has traveled. but oh well. We're moving into a smaller house that is closer in town so that we can be closer to school and work. This will make our lives easier and less of a stress on us. We don't know when we're moving, it all depends on our house selling and finding a new one to move into. We are moving for sure, it's the time frame that is fluctuating. I'll keep updates here though.

I think I'm going to try and start this thing I saw on Facebook for a blog idea. Everyday I'll read my scriptures and a General Conference talk and I'll find something from each that applies to my life at that time. I think this will help me expand my scripture study and make it more of a pondering and studying experience, rather than just reading it. And maybe by doing this I can inspire or help someone else. which would be fantastic! this will be my first one.. we'll see how this goes! :) hope you are looking forward to it as much as i am! :)

i think I'm going to go take a nap. i got 5 hours of sleep last night because of the AMAZING SPIDERMAN midnight premiere. IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH LOSING SLEEP. Everyone should see it. :) well, with parental discretion of course ;) hahah. but really. see it. I cried at one point. I think I'm going to go see it again very very soon. and i will for sure be buying it when it comes out on DVD.

good day!

thanks for reading..

--sammy!

a long time coming

it has been forever since i have last posted. man! over a month. well school got out, obviously! i have a job at the Desert Wave Pool as a life guard and i LOVE it. i am overwhelmingly tan. I went to girls camp (my last year as a girl.. technically! I'll probably go back next year) it was fantastic! i had great leaders and fantastic YCL's that stood beside me. There will always be a special spot in my heart for girls camp. ALWAYS. even if the first years drive me a little crazy. ;) there is something that I've realized in my life lately. you could call it a growing trend perhaps. life is full of far to many crappy decisions. sometimes you think you've set your standard high enough and you've set it strong enough, but in the heat of the moment and life is going a million miles an hour, stupid stuff still happens. It's a part of that whole "natural man" part of living on earth. life's hard! Satan is not a stupid man. he knows each and every one of us incredibly well. and he knows where our Achilles heel is, so to speak.--- and that's one huge reason I'm grateful for the Atonement. we're all stupid in at least one part of our lives on earth! because we all have secret desires in our hearts, no matter who you are. welcome to being human! and things will go wrong, oh will they go wrong! but, we're here on earth to learn. That's how we'll become perfect one day, we'll perfect our imperfections, we'll strengthen our weaknesses, and become like our Heavenly Father and our Savior and Brother Jesus Christ. It'll be spectacular! I've made plenty of mistakes in my life, so being able to learn from them and become a more Christ-like person is a fantastic thing! something i am surely grateful for.
life, is also full of plenty of enough confusion to go around. sometimes you'll have feelings and you won't have any idea why they're there. but they are. no matter how much you lie to yourself that they aren't, they'll almost always be there. which sucks. because sometimes you just want those feelings to disappear: to save friendships, your heart, and your happiness. i figure that time will aid in the dissolving in the feelings. well, I'm hoping. but as always, only time will tell, if time tells. if that makes sense...
all i know is i can't wait for this specific chunk of my life to be done with. i don't cope well with confusion and unresolvable conflicts. but it's just one of those imperfections i'll have to perfect. perhaps.
thanks for reading. :)

--Sammm.

finishing what i started.

I've been really vent-y lately... probably a little bit to much compared to the average person, but ah well. we can't all be perfect, right? something I've learned lately is that sometimes things are better left behind rather than sticking around and bothering yourself with the uncertainty and worries. it's just one of those life lessons that i have had to learn on a few occasions. in more ways than one I don't want to let go because of the faith/hope I've invested in the situation. while I know it's ultimately in my best interest to get out while I can and find a happier, more positive situation to be in. for the sake of my sanity and overall happiness.
it's just frustrating because there are people in your life that drive you crazy with their actions, and you just want to set the person straight because they don't understand what they're doing. simply because you want to help, but sometimes you just have to let friends learn for themselves...
^^this was from a few weeks ago, an unfinished draft i figured i should finish. i'm not really sure where to pick up from... i guess it's just weird how quickly friends can change while you're young. i've never been someone who stays with one person for forever, sometimes because of the situation and other times because of my own. but it seemed like days ago i things were on the other side of the spectrum. which makes sense, high school is full of people you love, people you can't stand, and change... not to mention the school part of it. it's not really for the bad, but not really for the good either. but i guess it's something i'll have to accept. it's not like it will be like this forever, right? ...it just seems like an over night change, like one second i was super close with one group than the next second it's changed. which isn't necessarily the case, because it was fairly gradual. we slowly just changed groups. this has happened before though... if you can never really hold onto something is it ever really yours? i guess it's like the quote i had on my mirror "if you're in a bad situation, don't worry it'll change. if you're in a good situation don't worry, it'll change." which is completely true! because once you find happiness, it either falls apart, or something gets in the way. at least in this section of eternity. (i'm still working on my eternal perspective...)
i guess all in all, it is just high school, where nothing is forever. obviously. things will change, the chances are minimal of me marrying someone from my high school/town. which is kind of weird to think of, because it really is all i've ever known.. this little Podunk town of Price, Utah. *random! i was thinking... when i'm at volleyball tournaments and random strangers ask where you're from, and i of course say "Price" or "Carbon"---they either say "Oh yeah i used to live there" or they know someone who has, or they have no clue in the world where it is. random tangent. sorry.* change is just a part of life, probably one of the most difficult parts to accept really. because as humans we like comfort. and change is usually far from it. but can you imagine how stupidly boring life would be if nothing ever changed? or how silly you'd feel in heaven and everything always changed for the good throughout the course of your life on Earth?
i could probably go on for days, but i shouldn't.
this is really random... all of it. but i just felt as if should "finish what i started".
good night reader...
thanks for reading!

updated

it's been almost a month, whoops! :) well well well, a BUNCH has changed lately. alot of new changes on the outside, and on the inside. hmm.. where to begin! I went to Junior Prom! which was a total blast! :) i went in a dress i loved but never imagined myself in, and my date was sooo much fun! it was definitely one of those great days i'll always remember.

The day my mom and I went shopping for the dress etc. was one of the longest days of my life. it was quite the stressful experience, buuut totally worth it in the end. :)

i finally got a job! i got hired at the wave pool as a lifeguard. it was stressful taking the class and the interview process too, but totally worth it (which seems to be a reoccurring theme). i haven't started yet, but i'm super excited/totally nervous to! i'm grateful because i'll no longer have to rely on my mom for money, which will be better for the both of us! and I can begin to save up for college. :)

i'm planning (as of now...) to apply for BYU Idaho. I've always loved Idaho, and it just seems like the right goal to set for now. although the likely hood of that staying that way is still fairly small. i'm still not sure what major i want to go into, but i do know i would like to try to become a seminary teacher. I love the gospel, and i have only felt glimpses of it when i have shared it with other people. and i really do love teaching/speaking. so hopefully that works out!

i've finished a number of really good books lately. one called "Faults in our Stars" by John Green. It was just another one of those books my mom had bought on her kindle and it had popped up on mine, and i needed a new book to read. it's about a girl named Hazel Grace and her short journey through a part of her life with a boy named Augustus Waters. I also should mention it is one of the cancer books. veeerrryyy sad. and very thought provoking too. i'm actually already re-reading the book because i rushed through it so quickly the first time.

I've also finished book one and book two of the Divergent series, which has been actually really thought provoking too. it's about where this society is sanctioned into 5 different factions. It's in the view from a Divergent girl named Beatrice (Tris). It's also a really good book. but I just finished the second book today, and it just came out last week. I haven't really been a reader since this year, I used to hate reading as a kid because I wasn't very good at it and I could never find suitable books for me. which has really caught up to me lately, but there is still time! i have read more in the last six months than i have in my entire life. weird, right? i'm really glad i picked it up though.. i know it will help me throughout the rest of my life, and it will give me something productive to do now.

that pretty much sums it up i guess!

thanks for reading



sleep schedule..

oh am i in for it on Tuesday! i haven't gotten to bed before 2 this entire (since the spring break was so excruciatingly long) break. it is somewhat ridiculous... and i am going to suffer some hideous consequences when school comes back around to slap us all in the face.
but don't get me wrong, the nights i stayed up that late were not for nothing. the first night i was with Ashley, we giggled well into the night at my house. getting us both in some serious trouble. but it was totally worth it, we never really see each other at the loony "i'm completely exhausted and everything is the funniest thing ever" phase, and we went there and back a few times over the course of the night. it was a nice bonding for us.
and the other night i was with Lizethe. we watched "while you were sleeping" with the fantastically diverse Sandra Bullock as the main character. we both ended up crying at least once during the movie. After the movie we ended up talking for over two hours. yet it only seemed like minutes. it was probably one of the greatest heart to hearts i have ever had. where we both left the conversation touched and relieved. if we weren't already sleep deprived, i'm sure the two of us could have talked all night long.
i just love those conversations where you feel 8,956.732 times better after wards.
but i painted my room! :) it's really fantastic. i've had the same room (with slight variations...) since i moved into my castle over five years ago. i had a hideous "wheat straw" color on 3 of my walls, and a hideous pastel purple on the fourth. the change was beyond over due. i now have one happy yellow wall and three "warm" gray walls. i absolutely adore my room now. i actually enjoy my time spent in there now!

this^^ is my room. well kind of. i now have furniture to accompany my lonely bed.

it still kind of has that painty smell in it... so i am still sleeping in the guest room until the paint smell subsides.

i got my Young Womanhood Recognition today! :) finally. after being in young womens for.. 5 years. i'm very glad to have it over with though. being a teenager is already busy enough! it was a rewarding experience, don't get me wrong. i'm grateful for my leaders and my mom for pushing me to finish. i am also very glad i got to keep the keys to my car...

i cannot wait to wear it with pride. :) it just screams or maybe whispers "I am a Daughter of God, 'so come what may'". :)

i feel as if i'm not exactly helping the bad sleep schedule situation with blogging. haha goodnight y'all.

thanks for reading.

--Samm

festering frustrations

i've felt the need to post... frustrations have been festering inside me for a few days and i need to get them all out so i can sort things out in my head and get on with life.
honesty has been on my mind a lot. i think a problem very prevalent in today's world is telling the partial truth, so it isn't really considered "lying", but not being completely honest. i think we're all guilty of this, whether we know it or not. i know i am, i've told the partial truth many times. whether to spare someones feelings or to dodge any consequences that accompany the whole truth. but something i've realized is that you feel better when you're completely honest with people. it isn't always the easy path to take, but i know it's the right one. it's just one of those things that people live and learn with, i guess. one of those experiences with experiencing the honesty, or should i say dishonesty is being the person that is lied to. it sucks. it's near the top of the list of the worst feelings to have... being lied to. the feel of betrayal and doubt hurt, and another thing is the loss of trust and faith in the person. like people always post on facebook, trust is like an eraser, it just gets smaller and smaller with every mistake. and that fact totally blows! so maybe we should just be honest with our dealings. now wouldn't that be nice...
i just wish i could figure things all out in my head. i thought for sure i had things going for me for a while, things were going as i had hoped and that was exactly where i liked it... but soon enough something crossed the path and threw everything i had hoped for, through a loop. i guess i need to keep the mindset "if things don't work out, that means God has something better in store" this is an easy state of mind when you keep coasting through all the green lights of life, but you just wait until the yellow and the red come. that's when the trial of the faith comes along. and "that's the point!" i keep telling myself, i'm here on this earth right now to learn aren't i? life is just the test for eternity, if it were easy eternity would stink. "the hard is what makes it great." i'm sure whoever said that was not in the midst of a "bump in the road" or a "red light" in their life.
maybe i should just start giving people the benefit of the doubt. maybe they don't realize their hurting others/me. maybe things in their life aren't going to stellar either... ugh. maybe's are hard sometimes. but maybe they do realize what they're doing is damaging others, and then what? gauly i have some things to sort out.
i'm really not looking forward to school tomorrow, just saying.
but i am planning on getting my application for the pool tomorrow! so tomorrow won't be a total waste. aaand i'm painting my room. :) which should be interesting..
thanks for listening to the vent (kind of) session.

--Samm

seven. teen.

what. a. day.
this has definitely been one of my better birthdays. :) not that i can really recall any of them that well, but still! my day started off by waking up later than i wanted to, as usual. i had to leave early to finish a project for financial lit with my husband. and that was a positive way to start off the day. :) then i learned about first-aid in my sports medicine class and we watched a clip from Monty Python. which was great. you know the scene, with the knight that says "none shall pass" and then he ends up getting all of his limbs cut off because of his lack of fighting skills. haha. i need to watch that movie soon. the whole thing! have you ever realized how many times that movie is used throughout our education? yet it is one of the strangest movies, ever? anyways, then i went to choir! where we learned what we scored at small group festival, THEN we played ultimate the whole period. the ALTOS AND BASSES REIGNED SUPREME. :) one of my favorite days in choir by far. then i had a fun birthday lunch at Wendy's with a bunch of my close friends. :) to be completely honest sixth and eight period are kind of a blur. ALTHOUGH. i was technically born at 2:55 on March 15, 1995. so i usually watch for the time just as a special tradition inside my head. it's great because i'm usually almost out of school at that point. well today i went out to my car to get my $79 dollar AP Language test fee check, and as i walked back into the school i looked at my phone and saw that it was 2:55. the first birthday i remember being alone at that time. weird. and i honestly, quietly, whispered "happy birthday Samm." i'm weird. i know.
then i had the life guarding class which was good. Paula gave me brownies. :) i struggled a little bit, but i'm definitely up for the challenge. :) after the life guarding class i went home and showered up so i could go to birthday dinner with my family. we went to Wingers, AND i got shotgun! :) i ordered the same thing i always order which was just as good as the first time! i got sung to, and it scared the living crap out of my mom and i as they walked around the corner. hahah. then i opened up my presents and i got an iHome that changes colors! along with a few flowers and hair things, and new church shoes which i desperately needed. :) then i went home, where i got shotgun on the way back. awesome! :) then i hung out with my friends. Erica and Ozzy picked me up. Ozzy got me a "beautiful" butterfly keychain. Erica got me a new nightgown... a thing of nutella, and earrings. and gum, but as it turns out, the gum wasn't for me, it was for her but she accidentally forgot to take out the gum from the walmart sack the present was in. :) then we went to Smiths and got a 4.99 ghetto birthday cake. :) then we went to share it with our friends at the pool. as it turns out, 4.99 cakes from Smiths aren't the greatest... but it's okay. even if it was the "worst five dollars" Erica ever spent. haha. then i helped clean... happy birthday, right? ;) after that a few of us went to Erica's where we jumped on the bikes and rode around to the highschool track. the ride back was brutal, like, beyond brutal! the hills kicked my butt, and my legs, and my lungs! my legs are still mad at me for it. and they are being loud and clear about it! it was so much fun. but once we had gotten back, we talked for a few minutes and had to leave because in all reality, it is a school night. :/ Lance's car was back at the school, and as Erica dropped us off to go home i got a little choked up as i told my friends how much i love them and how grateful i am for them. i got a ride home from to of my best guy friends. it was a pretty fun ride home. oh, did i mention McKenna got me a cantelope? my least favorite melon, but still. because one time, of the 24th of July this last summer, i ate a BIG BOWL, and i mean BIG BOWL of fruit of all kinds. haha. well i got home and read scriptures and prayer with my family and here i am... typing my day out...
well today was a great birthday, and it would not have been that way if it wasn't for my great friends and even greater family. i get a little teary eyed because of the profound effect my friends and family have had on my life. oh! the troubled teen i would be if it weren't for my great friends, and the ability they have to keep my on the straight and narrow. i love them all so much! i cannot even express.
well, i'm sad this day went by so quickly. thanks for all of you that made my day so great. i'm eternally grateful for you all. i literally am not doing any justice for all that they have done for me. i'm sure i'll write about this again soon to help the cause. but until then toodles! ;)
cannot wait to get my young women medalion! :)
thanks for reading!
hope you had a grand day!

--Samm.

faith and trust.

^^story of my life. haha. i think it's a story of every one's lives at sometime or another. i read a book today that is called "The Fault in Our Stars". my mom bought it on my kindle, and thanks to the graciousness of the "cloud" i get it too! :) it's about kids that have gone through cancer. i'm not very far into the book at all, like 6%... but the kid is talking about a fear. a fear of oblivion. i think that is the word he used. i think it can be a fear of everyone to not know what will come next, not knowing what is going on, and the fear of being forgotten... i kind of just feel like i need to have trust lately, not only in my self, but in my friends and family, and most importantly My Heavenly Father. I know i have the knowledge of right and wrong, and i know i have the one of the greatest opportunities on earth, which is having the Holy Ghost with me, as long as I live worthy of it. which i don't always do. which is the problem! i know what's right and wrong, what's smart and stupid, and what's wise or foolish. well... in most cases. but i still find myself caught up in the vain things of the world. always concerned about what's next, what is the next big thing? it was ward conference this last week and we had a speaker in young womens that talked about how we are always concerned with the big dance or the big game. and we always miss the little things that seem to make up our lives on earth. this is a goal of mine. to live in the moment, i know i won't always be perfect. but i want to live on focusing what is going on right now (along with the eternal perspective) but not dwelling on this that didn't happen, and probably won't. and things i really want to happen, but aren't willing to get out of my comforts zone to reach out and grab them.
i promise to live in the moment.
i figure i just need to have faith and trust in my Heavenly Father that as long as I stick with him and continue living wisely and righteously that my life will pan out how it needs to. as difficult as this can be sometimes, it really is something we will all have to face. once a situation gets to the point where it is out of hands, and into the hands of our Heavenly Father. i'm not sure if anything is making sense. this is kind of how i write papers. i just sit down and my thoughts travel through my fingers onto the keyboard. as strange as that seems. that would be why i always get low organization on my essays.
i feel a little bit better now. i just need to be more proactive and patient. and figure out what i really, and i mean really want.
good night folks. thanks for reading..

--Samm.

"deliruim"

i'm not sure what i'm doing on here. i should be reading "Maze Runner"... i'm almost done with it, but i'm sad for it to end because i'm not sure if i'll be able to purchase book number two of the trilogy. but if you really like the "Hunger Games", read it. It's kind of the apocoloyptic stuff i've gotten into lately. i also read this other book with the good pal McKenna, it's called "Delirium". it's a book about a girl who lives in a society where love is a disease. when someone turns the rightful age of 18 they get a surgery removing part of their brain, the brain the senses feelings. feelings like love. can you imagine this world without love? after these people's surgeries they forget a lot about their past life. they forget the love that they felt whether it was with a friend or an illegal romance. Another thing is these people don't dream. ever. which seems crazy, right? can you imagine this world without love? they classified love as a disease because of the hate it causes within people. they did this because it causes people to commit suicide and to do bad things, that love is what is killing these people. i won't give any details about the book as to not ruin it for you. but it is definitely something to think about.
i definitely think life would be utterly wasted without love. you wouldn't really have anything. sure you end up with someone you are paired up with and are required to have children, but what is the point. you never would really truley love your kids. or your husband. i'm sure the kids would love their parents, but after the surgery they are hardly anything, they are simply who gave the person life. and that seems like nothing! it just gives me gratitude for love, because without it life really would be a waste of time. why on earth would we even be here? and sure, because love does go sour sometimes, which draws people to do silly things. but honestly, there is always someone to love you. always. even though it may seem to be the end of the world because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, your world isn't over. there are plenty of other people that love you as a person. and there are plenty more to find! so why would you let one failure hold you back from dozens and dozens of successes? why not let that failure push you to be even greater? it is really only a failure if you let it be. i'm just kind of venting. sometimes i wish i could take my own advice.
something to think about!
Thanks for reading..

p.s. i suggest reading delirium. other than a cuss word here or there the book is overall really good. i'd give it a 7 out of 10.

i feel the need, the need to blog?

I have no idea what to actually blog about, but I have had an off day from beginning to now. And I usually feel better after I complain and stuff about my life.Well I woke up late. kind of. I woke up on time, but got out of bed late. Which just kind of set my day off wrong. Then I failed a quiz in sports med. awesome! and then I just sucked it up in choir, as always. Lunch was fun. We had PB&J's and devils/angels food cake. Then the rest of school was just a blurr of frustration and turmoil.
After school I talked with my dear friend McKenna in Grand Canyon and that was nice to get out a few of my concerns and problems. Then I went home and watched some American Idol... which didn't help. You know something is wrong when you cry when you watch American Idol. haha. After that I helped my mother with the Chicken Enchilladas for dinner and got ready for Volleyball. The Enchilladas got out of the oven just as I was getting ready to leave. I put it on a paper plate and ate them on the ride over. kind of... I just held them in my hand the whole way, with the exception of when I pulled out of my driveway and burned my entire mouth on the lava peice of enchillada. awesome!
At volleyball we had to forfeit our first match because there was an insane miscommunication about what time our game was. But we did play one match, which we won. For once! After that I chatted with some team mates for a few minutes then made the drive clear out to Spring Glen for Young Womens. Which was fun. Then I talked with one of my best friends Jenna Lee, aka my therapist, or... one of them. Then I went and hung out with her family for a few minutes. I then sped home because I was late and in trouble...
We had scriptures and prayer as a family and then I wrote a magnificent paper on Alan Menken. Who turned out to be a pretty cool dude in the end. But still seriously boring to write about.
Hmm.. I feel like I should be doing personal progress right now. Instead of "venting" out my frustrations on the pointless blog that really will get me no where in life. awesome!
I cannot wait for the rest of this week! I have Club Volleyball practice tomorrow, which is always fun. I have missed my volleyball girlies dearly! It should be a good time. :) Thursday I have this date auction date to go on, which should be just as fun. Friday I have the swim banquet and a potential day date for Morp. And Saturday is Morp! I cannot wait to get covered in paint with all my friends. This is going to be an awesome week! Except for the test I'm going to fail... awesome!
In the words of my mother I think it is time I "wrap this up."
Good Night y'all! Thanks for reading.

--Samm.

busy-ness.

holy hannah. life has gotten so busy so quickly! Even when I don't have a spring sport. well, kind of. With FCCLA, ProStart, Choir, Morp date stresses, and some fun in there.. and school! how could I forget... well with all those things going on with new things coming along everyday. everyday I seem to be so busy. And when I'm not doing anything, I'm lazing around like right now. I should not be blogging. I should be doing my horrendous "Animal Farm" packet for English. Or cleaning my room. Instead I'm blogging and on pinterst. Awesome. I feel so old. I've been kind of going non-stop since about the seventh grade. With the exception of a few summer days and vacations here and there. I cannot believe how quickly my adolescence has gone by, and it how quickly it continues..maybe even picking up speed! Last Sunday was my wards new beginnings. I am now the oldest girl there and the Laurel Pres. It seemed like only yesterday when it was the new beginnings I was being welcomed into. I was the only girl to be coming in throughout the following year. During the new beginnings I got to sit in a fancy chair, they game me a crown and a sash(like what they give you at pageants) that said "Daughter of a King." When I was that age I did not even fathom what that statement truly meant. sure growing up I sang "I am a Child of God" so many times I could probably sing it backwards. But at the naive age of 11 almost 12, I could have never understood the blessings of being a "Daughter of God." anyways... As I was reflecting on this experience I got a little teary eyed, thinking of all the young women that were older than me that I had looked up to. And then realizing I have to be what they were for me, for the young girls in my ward and the newest girlies just coming in. I ended bawling throughout the entire meeting because I am so old and my days in the young womens program are so numbered. I don't believe I have taken advantage of the young womens program. Because I've been so busy since the beginning.
After the meeting closed I was talking with Jenna, one of my closest friends. I told her that I only have one girls camp left in me. and that I had a little over a year left in young womens with her. To my surprise she started crying! It's incredible how close her and I have become over the past year or so. She will be someone I miss the most that is outside of my family when I "grow-up" and "move away"...
Something else that doesn't help is that fact that Jack is getting ordained on Sunday. My baby brother, holding the Preisthood. Jack! A preisthood holder! Which only makes me feel older. Soon enough I'm going to be a mom and an aunt. with the days of adolescense long since passed.
I need to knock it off. Stop wasting time whining, and more time doing the fun stuff i won't be able to do when I am old! (no offence, older people...)
I feel like I need to do something crazy! Maybe that will be my next post, illustrating what crazy thing I have done next. I cannot wait!
Thanks for listening to me whine, as always!

--Samm.

the source of the stink!

For the past few weeks my car has smelled really terribly disgustingly bad. It has gotten progressively worse every day. Well today after Erica was dropping Zach and I off at my car we opened up all my car doors to see if we could find anything. Erica and Zach went around to the back and asked if there could be anything in the trunk and I said..."well let's check!". At first I look and I don't see anything, then my eye catches a "Michelena's" package. (you know, the frozen meals that never seem to re-heat the right way.) And they REEKED.
So I take them out and we were all sure that that was the source of my car smelling so bad the past two weeks. I take them out and call my mom. She said they must have fallen out of the back of a grocery bag when she was borrowing my car about a MONTH ago. yeah, those once frozen meals sat in my car for almost a month. REPULSIVE.
I'm just glad that I won't have to worry about choking on the air in my car everytime I get in it, or my friends convulsing everytime they open the door. I'm still going to FeBreeze the entire thing. Adding a little extra to the trunk too!
I will never take a clean smelling car for granted, again.

Thanks for reading.

--Samm.
ps-- one of the substitutes asked me about my second M today. He said "that's like adding a second period on the end of a sentence, just for fun."
I was deeply offended. I guess this poor man will just never understand that "Samm" suits me...

happiness?

ugh. today feels like the longest day of my life, i feel like this morning was days ago. it was probably the prolonged headache that hasn't ceased reminding me of it's presence. but tonight was fun, which helps, kind of... but i feel like I'm really out of it lately. like where i will think back on what i have done in the past twenty-four hours and I feel like it has passed by so quickly and it just left me behind... i read a quote the other day that really had an impact on me.

"The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolve than it will be."

-Marcel Pagnol

I have no clue who Marcel Pagnol is, but i think the dude knows/ knew his stuff. But i really do think this guy was speaking directly to me. i can never seem to completely let go of the silly things of the past, i never seem to be as happy as i have potential to in the present, and i always seem to have a far less than positive out look about my future. i guess that's just something I'll have to work on. trying to take a step forward everyday, rather than three steps back. i think as the days go on my new years resolutions list just gets longer and longer...

I really like that quote by.. i think it's John Lennon. if i had to guess, but don't quote me on it... when he talks about how him mother always told him he needs to be happy, and when his teacher asked him what he wanted to be when he grew up he said "happy". then the teacher says "i don't think you understand the question." and he replies "i don't think you understand life." i'm just paraphrasing, of course. but is so true. if we had it in our goals to make every effort we could to be happy in our lives, we would be. i just wish that sometimes when you try to let yourself be happy, you could be. as some of us know, that isn't always Heavenly Fathers plan for us.

well, i just took some ibuprofen and I'm really hoping I'll get some sleep tonight so that i can get at least a decent score on my ServSafe test.

cannot wait to wake up at 6:30 tomorrow morning!

Thanks for listening to me grovel about my feelings. and good night.

--Samm...

a point for the girls!

today has been, interesting! somewhat of a very very strange day at school, turned into a pretty impressive afternoon. sooo.. it's kind of a long story, but it is totally worth telling. so almost everyday, someone in my group of friends gets their car keys taken. well today, Erica and I took Zach's. We hurry and hid in the girls bathroom. (a silly idea, really)

we stayed in there for a couple of minutes, but the bathrooms at our school are heated very well. so we attempted to make an exit. we thought they were holding the door closed, when they had just moved the bench in front of the door. so with Erica's and i's brute strength we got the door open. they just sat there in grand canyon, as calm as ever. not even attempting to chase after us.

so we just bolted the other way. making our way around the entire school to get to Zach's car. We made it to his car without seeing them, and then we tried to pull out and Lance cut us off. so we backed out instead! and sure enough there Zach was in Erica's car (she has a 'secret' hiding spot for her keys in her always unlocked car..) it wasn't easy but we finally got out of the parking lot at the head of the pack. we drove a couple of blocks with them following but finally lost them as we were all making a left turn at a stop light and Zach's p.o.s. car would not shift into the right gear so we were a little late on our turn. so they were stuck at a red light while we made a break for it. Erica and I made a few turns and parked in a packed alley as we watched Lance pass us. We didn't see Zach, but we assumed they had decided to "divide and conquer." so we drove around for a good 15-20 minutes before Lance calls me. He tried very hard to get us to tell him where we were or at least a "10 block radius" as he said. He claimed it would keep the game more fun and interesting. we did not budge. we realized that Zach's work stuff was in the front seat so we decided to drop it off so he wouldn't have an excuse to get his car back. After that we drove around for a while and then parked safely by my dad's house where we knew they couldn't find us. We both ended up on the phone with them, Erica on my phone with Lance, and me with Zach on Erica's phone. We ended up talking for a few minutes as they tried to figure out where we were. but Erica's phone died and Lance decided to call Zach. During our conversation we told them that Erica had a spare key and we could easily get the car back... bad idea! So we concluded that they would hide the car before the two of them had to go to their 4:30 shift at work.

planking fail #1

planking fail #2

posing on Zach's car... :)

hahahahaha. :)

We ended up driving for a while longer, taking a scenic route of the back roads of Price. We found a play ground we were going to stop and take pictures at but it was far to cold, and neither of us had our jackets. So, we took a few pictures on Brutus (what we decided to name Zach's car.)

 So we went to Erica's house to get some food. After that and talking with Erica's mom we went on a rescue mission for Erica's car. She pointed out that they didn't have very long to hide the car before they had to work, so that we should check the Pre-school (Zach's family's) because it's so close to the pool. and sure enough! there it was in the back of the Pre-school behind the gates. Realizing we had Zach's keys and figured he would have one to get into it, we tried it out. and the second key we tried, BINGO! :) we got in. we figured out the gates and got the car out. Never have you ever seen Erica and I so proud.

we were so happy to have him back! :D

Then we went and got my car from the high school. After we got back to Erica's we "decorated" Zach's car, since our attempt to two days before had failed:

Zach and Lance claimed they couldn't tell whose Handwriting it was the other day when we "decorated" Lance's car.

I think we always have to put this on the back of his car...

he always makes us feel stupid...

and these two dots will drive him NUTS when he's driving. oh yeah, and did I mention that he took Erica's car and got taco bell?

We also colored his rear view mirrors. and wrote "Zachy-POO" on one of the other windows. :)

after this we went and sat in Erica's basement and warmed up. Then we had a very delicious stir-fry dinner. After that we headed to our local Wal-Mart to pick up a few things with Erica's Mother. We were a little late for the game but we made it by half time. We sat with McKenna and Annika. After the game we decided it would be grrreat to see the looks on their faces when they saw we got the car back. But they didn't get off work in time for me to see it, but to pass the time we took pictures in my car, as we creeped.

 As you can tell, we stink at taking pictures. haha. these are only a fraction of all the ones we took and an even smaller fraction of the ones that FAILED. I had to leave before we got to see their faces so that I could be home for curfew.
Once I got home Zach called me and I told him of how we got the car, and how proud we were about finding it. He told us he still thought we were stupid.
See if he ever gets his car back!
in the end, apparently. everyone got their car back... sadly. but it still made for an interesting/adventurous day.
Also! Girls win! :) even though everyone ended up getting their car back!
Thanks for reading.

--Samm.
ps--longest post of my life!
pps-- the spell checker thing can scare the crap out of you when it makes you think you deleted everything. when it just saves in your drafts...

today!?

today, has been a long day. it's kind of torterous to wake up at 6 am on a saturday... but it was totally worth it. region was probably one of the best meets i've had, ever. i got a PR (personal record) in all of the events i swam. which is a first! although the meet seemed like it went by really slow, it utlimately zoomed by. i still can't believe that this swim season is over already. it always seems like you can never hold on to the moments that make you happiest. because truthfully "time flies when you're having fun." which is kind of heartbreaking. because high school is fun! with the exception for the heartbreaks, the drama, and the school part of it. and it seems to be going by so quickly that i can't seem to catch a hold of how quickly the question "what do you want to be when you grow up?", will become a reality. which really does stink, because i have no idea what i want to be when i grow up. i haven't found my nitch yet. something you love to do, and you feel like you have the potential to really find success in. and it sucks.
this blog always seems to jump around like this... i start out talking about something like swim and then i just jump and jump and jump around to other parts of my life i can find joy in, or complain about.
i am glad i today was a good day though. it was what i needed! i can't believe my weekend is almost over already though. it seems like it has come four days to soon.
well, i found some more quotes i really like. so i figure i'll share them.

someday, people will say this about me.

a lesson i have yet to learn!

probably my favorite one. that is a pretty epic picture of einstein!

well thanks for reading! :) i hope you have an awesome weekend and rest up for another crazy week tomorrow! good night!

--Samm.

one of those moods!

i hate writing papers. with a passion. although sometimes, when you get on a funny writing kick (like i am now) they can be quite amusing. i got to write a fractrued fairytale for my english class. I totally thought it was due on the 18th, which i thought was thursday. and as it turns out, it's tomorrow! but it's finished, so no need to stress your little heart for me. And the crazy thing is, i don't even think i did it right! it kind of kills the awesome feeling of finishing a paper, and then you realize you haven't exactly done it the way you were supposed to!
i'm kind of at that weird point in the night where a whole of things that aren't funny, suddenly become hilarious to you. not because i'm exhausted or anything. just because, it's been that weird kind of day. although, i am kind of tired.
i found the last two paragraphs of my paper quite hilarious... i think i'll share them with you!

As it turns out, Philoh the bum is the only citizen in the entire country that knew anything about magic (and very little he knew!) In the end they never find anyone to change Amelia back. She lives a long sad life as a pet for King Bruce and his Queen Leah. And they lived happily ever after.

          The morals of this story are if a handsome prince asks you to marry him, follow the words of my dear friend Nike and “just do it.” And maybe you should start keeping a closer eye on the crazy bums that parade around your town.

this is evidance right here that it should be illegal for me to write papers when i am in one of these moods.
but i'm about to have a nice chat with my sister over skype!
so good night!
and thanks for reading.

--Samm.

quotes i think people need to see.

i hope you like these as much as i do!

i might just print all these out and post them all over my room. :)

this is the type of things i do on my days off.