faith and trust.

^^story of my life. haha. i think it's a story of every one's lives at sometime or another. i read a book today that is called "The Fault in Our Stars". my mom bought it on my kindle, and thanks to the graciousness of the "cloud" i get it too! :) it's about kids that have gone through cancer. i'm not very far into the book at all, like 6%... but the kid is talking about a fear. a fear of oblivion. i think that is the word he used. i think it can be a fear of everyone to not know what will come next, not knowing what is going on, and the fear of being forgotten... i kind of just feel like i need to have trust lately, not only in my self, but in my friends and family, and most importantly My Heavenly Father. I know i have the knowledge of right and wrong, and i know i have the one of the greatest opportunities on earth, which is having the Holy Ghost with me, as long as I live worthy of it. which i don't always do. which is the problem! i know what's right and wrong, what's smart and stupid, and what's wise or foolish. well... in most cases. but i still find myself caught up in the vain things of the world. always concerned about what's next, what is the next big thing? it was ward conference this last week and we had a speaker in young womens that talked about how we are always concerned with the big dance or the big game. and we always miss the little things that seem to make up our lives on earth. this is a goal of mine. to live in the moment, i know i won't always be perfect. but i want to live on focusing what is going on right now (along with the eternal perspective) but not dwelling on this that didn't happen, and probably won't. and things i really want to happen, but aren't willing to get out of my comforts zone to reach out and grab them.
i promise to live in the moment.
i figure i just need to have faith and trust in my Heavenly Father that as long as I stick with him and continue living wisely and righteously that my life will pan out how it needs to. as difficult as this can be sometimes, it really is something we will all have to face. once a situation gets to the point where it is out of hands, and into the hands of our Heavenly Father. i'm not sure if anything is making sense. this is kind of how i write papers. i just sit down and my thoughts travel through my fingers onto the keyboard. as strange as that seems. that would be why i always get low organization on my essays.
i feel a little bit better now. i just need to be more proactive and patient. and figure out what i really, and i mean really want.
good night folks. thanks for reading..

--Samm.